coupled in betwixt the folds of mindless musings

all pictures in my head begin to blur

endless gavels did fall telling me, “I’m nothing!”

a thousand echoes toss me round

wanting just to see– my sight has fled

but still I see shadows of the one I used to be

so carefree and happy, the music fades

within me stirs, I smell a rotten egg

my insides betray me, making my soul tremble

am I living? do you see the pain that dwells within me?

I am alive- drowning at sea

tossing and turning, diving down deep

I’m lost down here- cast among the heap

turned around, upside down

is this all I’ll ever be?

a product of the torment that turned me into me?

where is the light?

no beams I see.

donna marie