coupled in betwixt the folds of mindless musings
all pictures in my head begin to blur
endless gavels did fall telling me, “I’m nothing!”
a thousand echoes toss me round
wanting just to see– my sight has fled
but still I see shadows of the one I used to be
so carefree and happy, the music fades
within me stirs, I smell a rotten egg
my insides betray me, making my soul tremble
am I living? do you see the pain that dwells within me?
I am alive- drowning at sea
tossing and turning, diving down deep
I’m lost down here- cast among the heap
turned around, upside down
is this all I’ll ever be?
a product of the torment that turned me into me?
where is the light?
no beams I see.